there's just so much i want to say, but words can't really describe it. i have always trusted on writing to express myself, but there are just some.. emotions, feelings, heartfelt gratitude that i have no idea how to type.
the past 10 days in Ipoh were truly amazing.
there was the things we did, the playing, the performing, the tutoring, the foreign friends we made, the friendships strengthened between alumni, knowing the laorens (who are not as scary as i thought anyway!), the high-ing, the nonsensical moments..
singing nonstop- on the bus, standing by the roadside, while waiting for our food, while shopping.. what can i say? enjoyed it so much, and i even smile ridiculously to myself while i'm typing this.
i don't know how to describe this feeling to you, but first of all, there was this one thought which i felt was quite essential, is that music brings people together. i've always felt that people from performing arts were different, and band people are just that little more different from the rest. and this little bit of difference makes us shine. i have no idea whether it's the same for other bands, but there's always a very family feeling in amb. and i don't mean the dysfunctional kinds alright. hmmm.. well i guess we just really take care of each other and genuinely care for each other. and even when we have been away for a number of years (like me), we still put in our all to help our juniors. there's that connection. maybe this doesn't apply to everyone who had passed through the band room doors but i dare say all of those alumni members on the trip do.
and we cover each other's ass and try to help each other out as much as we can. the unity definitely can't be found anywhere else.
mmmm getting a little mushy and off tangent here. but i guess i do agree with mr lim, band people play music and we feel alot, maybe sometimes too much.
and because i'm a sentimental person and i have issues with letting go of things, most of the time when i have something memorable i'll want to pen it down but never get round to doing it (explains my half empty diary). i know i have lots more to say.
this post is gonna get edited, or i'll start another post probably. cos there's just too much to say. should stop rambling and organise my thoughts better first.
awwww i feel sad!
but i feel so blessed :)
& all along, its only what I thought.
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