500th post! wow time sure flies.
over the past week when i lost my voice, i kind of hated it but enjoyed it at the same time.
the previous time i lost my voice in sec 4, it was really quite traumatising cos it was during olevel period and the powerless feeling was terrible. other than the obvious part of not being able to talk, there was that feeling of not being able to make any sound AT ALL, not being able to answer the phone, to scream when you're in trouble, to even whisper.. yeah that was a dark period! especially cos sis was still working in china that time and our only form of communication is through phone calls (msn was banned in china for some reason.) that was BAD.
but this time, kind of enjoyed it cos i can not reply to anything other people say. it was like being deaf and mute, cos people don't expect you to say anything anyway, so i can pretend i don't hear it in the first place. hahaha
the funniest thing is that because i'm whispering to people, people somehow naturally whisper back.
so anyway while i was still mute last sunday, listened to a sermon at church that was really apt!
the verse was from James 1:19-25
"My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires."
James 1:19-20
it caused me to stop and ponder for awhile, because those who know me well enough know i'm one of those who speak without thinking and get angry easily (but calms down fast too!)
quick to listen- to listen to what others have to say before stating your point.
slow to speak- to speak carefully and graciously, uplifting others and using your words to be a blessing to others
slow to become angry- anger can cause one's actions to be out of character
sometimes i have regretted what i said in a fit of anger, cos often you choose to use the most hurtful words and even if you don't mean it, you can't take back the words later when you've calmed down.
on the bright side, i think my temper has simmered down considerably since last time. but lots more to go!
aim to be a better listener and less anger please! :)
& all along, its only what I thought.
1:24 AM