i. am. so. sick. of. studying!
it isn't that i hate studying. i quite enjoy it, actually. it's just that i don't like studying under pressure. there's just this urgent need to stuff everything into your brain in the shortest time possible and as accurately as you can.
which makes it so very stressful.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i've had enough of cramming info into my brain. i think my brain's gonna burst soon, just like how a cell bursts when placed in distilled water. it'll absorb and absorb water. then the cell'll expand~ and expand~ until there's too much water molecules inside of it. then the cell membrane will break and the cell'll burst.
aha.
i was studying bio today. -no prizes for guessing correctly.
there's still social studies which i'm trying to avoid, pushing it until i really have to study it. don't have much love for humanities; they require too much memorizing and writing just to get that few measly marks. and of course, i don't do too well in it, so that's partly the reason why i dislike it.
so should i do
1) growth of nations?
2) sustainability & good governance?
or
3) venice?
SIAN!
!!!!!!!!!
that's enough grouching for now.
something lighthearted..
anyway today something funny happened at tuition. see, there was this chinese dictionary on the table. so me, being bored from all the studying, decided to look for my name in the dictionary. word by word of course. so, i found out that my name [jia] means good, while [yun] does not have a really applicable meaning, just that it has something to do with music. zhiwei just summarised that to mean "good music". so is that why i'm in band?
but anyway, zhiwei and i checked out her name. and we found out that [zi] obviously means purple, while [wei] (this is the funny part) means [qiang wei], a kind of plant that grows lowly and does not have a stem. in short, it just means that she's purple, short, indecisive and spineless. something like that lah..
then the last name we checked was weisong's. his name -erhem-, [wei] is something like big, then [song] very loosely translated means squirrel. so when you put his name together, it means: a very big mountain squirrel who loves to eat leaves.
HAHAHAHA. you tell me, whose name worse?
but then, your name is not exactly something you can choose, right? of course, in true chinese traditon, all the words in your name has a meaning and normally represents what your parents hope you'll become. i'm sure weisong doesn't really mean a mountain squirrel, nor zhiwei a purple plant..
oh, but zhiwei did mention that her name has some poetical meaning. i'm not very sure what it means, but can some chinese lit person kindly explain? or we can always ask her parents..
ever wondered what your name means?
oh yes! tomorrow's together IV!! all the best to all my juniors, especially to my dearest section, including SARAH and IZYAN! sarah! must do well for your solos okay! don't get nervous. and izyan, this is your first concert without your seniors around, i do hope you won't get too stressed. and of course, i'm not around to share your part.. [ i wonder whether this is good or bad?]
shall be going back tomorrow to band. i better start studying on my SS, shouldn't i?
but i really really don't feel like it!
i want to run away,
run away like an ostrich hides his head in the sand.
you disappoint me, you know?
disappointment is something everyone tries not to come in contact with, but unfortunately, it just happens to pop up on you unexpectedly through the person you least expect it from.
`because you never thought a friend could let you down like this.
& all along, its only what I thought.
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