hi.
i'm waiting til midnight, so i can call my sis. the dear girl's in shenzhen now, i hope she's careful with her stuff, heard there's alot of pickpockets over there. not clumsy ones, but really skilled in their "craft". one perfectly aimed slit to your pocket, you won't feel anything, and that's the last you see of your stuff.
whatever she loses, she had better not lose her passport, IC or her handphone.
especially her handphone, that's currently the only way i can keep in contact with her. since her company blocks hotmail, the only email account i have. and i just heard that china blocks blogspot or something like that. hope that it isn't true, if not there's practially no way to keep in touch with her.
china and all its communist propaganda and whatnots.
i had this weird dream last night. see, last night i slept for abt 14 hours, so there was plenty of time for dreaming.
i don't remember much of it, but in the dream, i know i was a prisoner or something, i was just being captured. then there was this man, i don't know lah. there there were this threecouples, they were the ones who somehow set me up. i wasn't in jail but i was chained up and everything, like some cage animal.
there was a forest, very dark and misty and scary and all.
then the tables were turned. this man, whom i supposedly did some wrong to, found out about the scam and locked the three couples up, guys in one cage, and the women in another.
i remember taking photographs of the man with a camera, from many angles in this small hut thing in the forest. suddenly there was this other woman behind me, she seemed to know this man. i stopped taking photos, and this man asked me to kill the 6 people. so i went out with some weapon, i dunno, must be a gun or some knife thing.
i remember walking towards the women, they were looking out at me from behind the bars of the cage, just laughing at me, even though they knew they were going to die soon.
i guess i killed them after that, or maybe the man did.
whatever the dream was, i'm spooked. i don't go around killing people or walking around in deserted, misty, ark forests you know? the kind where you walk, layers of dead leaves will crunch under your feet.
it was a weird dream, i hope that it's not a recurring one :(
well, i remember telling michelle that you can actually control your dream somehow. i dunno what made me say that at that point of time, but i suppose i might have tried it before. can't remember it now though.
don't you find dreams funny?
they have some elements of your everyday life but in other aspects, it's completely unlike what you have ever done and they cannot be further away from the truth.
sometimes dreams are nice, it's like having another life together. it's like even when you are resting, you are out having fun. like this once, i dreamt i was flying with my sis in this gym (the american high school kind) while a party of sorts was going on down there. and some dreams just give you very pleasant feelings. even after you wake up and you simply cannot remember what you dreamt about, the happy feeling remains.
but of course, there are always two sides to a coin, and last night's dream was proof of that.
hope i can have a pleasant dream tonight. sweet dreams~
i raise my hand to wave, but there is no one there. he has already left, disppeared into nowhere.
maybe this is all for the better, maybe it was meant to be like this all along.
maybe it's all an illusion; maybe i'm delusional.
maybe one day everything will be made known.
maybe someday i will not be waving at nothingness.
& all along, its only what I thought.
10:26 PM