hihi! have been rather busy this few days. trying to catch up on my 12 hours of sleep. class chalet was wonderful, but shall leave it for when i have time to type it all out. if i ty to type now, i won't be finishing before 12 midnight. seriously.anyway, together II will be here soon. in one week, to be precise.don't know why i'm so worried about it this time now. it's not even my first concert. since i joined the main band, there was together I, KL concert, SYF, and ambience 2. it might not seem like alot, but there were still numurous events along the way. performances at school, exchanges with other schools, CCA open house. it's this particular concert that i'm worried about. one more week. somehow, i'm hoping that i can, as grace says, sleep through it all. one whole week of sleep is exactly whay i need to clear my brain, don't you think? hah. i wish.AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i feel like screaming my brains out. but on second thought, i would be needing my brain for the future yah?okok. be sensible and take a deep breath. everything is g o i n g t o b e o k a y . i'm trying to convince myself. it doesn't seem to be working. at all.great.great.grace brainwashing me isn't going to help. i'm just going to freak out. i think i've already starting to think of the downside of things long before i knew it. subconsiously, i'm mostly negative. or in a nicer way, i think of both sides of the argument. like in a debate. pros and cons. just that the cons seem to outweigh the pros.scream, scream, and scream somemore. not at night though. my sis will strangle me quiet. but she's listening to jay chou, so she can't hear me, right? november's chopin!! my sis's like a jay chou freak or something. that day when she bought the album, she was practically cursing everyone who knocked into her jay chou giant poster. haiz. and then, when she wanted to listen to the cd, she tried to take out the cd case without removing. just give it up lah. please, if you like the album so much, might as well go buy a new one, unwrapped and display it on her shelf.
jay chou shi lian (breakup) is it? like the songs i this album mostly about love and all the ta mentioned is the female ta, just like in english, he and she. well, the songs are not that bad, just that there isn't the sense of familarity(?) that i have when i listen to for example, qi li xiang. there is something comforting about humming along to songs that you know, instead of wondering about the lyrics or the change in tempo. on a bad day, scream to some rock somgs. after that and when your eardrums recover, sing along to ballads. you'll feel much better after that. oh, and a good cry wouldn't be too bad too.
back to screaming out the window. the neighbours will probably think i'm some psycho freak. but never mind, not like i like my new neighbours that much too.
today i was rather bored. sorry to yinshuen for being so shao xing and not wanting to go out. another day lah. anyway, was looking through the papers. not really reading cover to cover, just reading those that seem slightly interesting. then i was looking at the obituaries, wondering, when will it be my turn, when i'm causally flipping though, and recognising the name that comes with the picture? it's sweet to see their family placing a notice in the papers, even after their beloved has died for a decade or even more. i wonder. when it is my turn, will anyone still do that for me long after i have gone to the great unknowns?
then i went and looked at the classified section. then there was the properties ads. i was looking at the bishan area. hmmx. seems like not many in my side of bishan are selling their property. does this mean that they'll happy with what they have now? nahh i doubt so. i'm just looking on a single day, how would i know. i think i'm thinking too much. thats how bored i can get when there's no school. hah. hoping that somehow, the people underneath will move out soon.i'm not friendly with the neighbours, it's just that way. this particular family is getting on my nerves. i don't even know their faces actually. even before they moved in, is like unwelcomed already. their renovations went past the date set by HDB, and then they were hurrying to get the job done. that's when they do work starting early in the morning and ending late in the night. most of the time, i'm not at home. only when we were having the one week break in september then i knew. its VERY irritating. one saturday morning, i woke up to the vibrating and noise from downstairs. ok i adnit, it wasnt that early, about 9 i think, but i NEED MY SLEEP. blah. my sleep is not to be disturbed. and then, ok fine, they are justing trying to earn a living. fine. its time i wake up earlier anyway. sometimes when i'm at home, i'll hear this guy's voice. he isn't talking or shouting, just hollering. like :"OIE" really loudly. can't he at least soften his voice and speak in full sentences? hello?? i thought the younger generation is supposed to be those not speaking properly. blahhs.
then now is like every night, and sometimes in the afternoon too, someone from the house will be smoking. he (i'm very sure it's a he) will be standing at the window smoking. i;m sure he is doing this so that the smell won't be circulating around his house, but HEY! spare a thought for your neighbours can? all the smoke and smell that isn't going into your house is being blown into other's house. and i don't want to die so young, and also not from lung cancer.
blahhs. talking about this puts me into a bad mood.
by the way, congrats to those who made the appeal.who else would be in the same class woth me? 3S + 1H. anybody? will sure like to count how many people i know in the same class. just hope that it will be a fun loving class. not too quiet, i prefer the notorious side. like 2/4.
ahh. sweet class of 2005.
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& all along, its only what I thought.
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