blahhs. had drills for the recruits today. so blur by the end of the session. i couldn't even remember which leg to use. it comes so naturally normally, but try to teach someone, and you would be like :" you are supposed to bang on your RIGHT leg. erm, no. make that a LEFT. or is that a right? ARGH. shit." get the idea? wasn't too bad bah. will improve i hope.
band room flooded again today. this time from the outside. quite amaxing. i have never seen it flood, and so quicckly before. it was like suddenly, whoosh. water up to ankle level. then have to empty the water into pails then pour away. if flood in then the instruments are gone. and the first to go? the saxophones. then too bad for us, we can start singing while others play.
bad as it might sound, but seriously, it was good to see band people working together happily. it has been a long time since i saw that. not too long ago, it was common sight, but nowadays, it's rare to see that. everybody is just so.. sian? am i right to say that? correct me then.
i want to go watch harry potter tomorrow. everytime i'll automatically be excluded from those movies and such. cos? "oh. you have band right?" thanks alot sia. i'll rather sleep at home. then go out, rot, get butt-ache, and risk being stranded and drowning in rainwater. at least by sleeping, i can dream.
what went wrong? everything.
being tied down isn't fun, so is having a burden constanly reminding you, nagging at you. thats your conscience speaking. i just i can shut that damn thing up with a toilet roll. if only it's that easy. doesn't it ever take a break from nagging me to do the right things, be nice to people, don't snap, and always treat people with a kind heart? and so on and forth. so eat shit when i don't do that. currently my consicence is once again telling me not to say things behind others' back. but blahh. i'm not in a good mood. so what else is new?
you know what else? life sucks.
i don't like it, not at all. but who am i? i'm just a teanny wesy fly. insignificant, get it?
``balloons fly
~kiaa
& all along, its only what I thought.
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